I haven't had words hurt me so deeply in a long time. I was numb for about a day, it was a lot easier that way, but now my heart has the familiar deep ache back, but even deeper, which I wasn't sure could happen and its pretty unbearable. I'm on one severe losing streak. I try so hard to do things right, and I just keep failing. I try so hard to love, and apparently somehow, I seem to hurt people instead... I can't get it right. I don't know how I can get such a complete opposite outcome from what I aim for. I fail at life and people.