I want my life and hopes and silver lining back.  
Life was throwing some awful setbacks and struggles at me, rather relentlessly as it will,
but at least I had my partner by my side each day, to shuffle in some good cards with the bad cards in my hand.  The good, was good.  It made the setbacks okay.  It medicated some of the pain and erased darkness for a while each day.  The good whispered to me about glimpses of better times to come. 
My silver lining completely dissipated before my eyes.  I want it back.