I've never felt so broken and worthless as a human. Im sick and getting sicker instead of better.  I cannot work to pull my own weight, and seems unrealistic I would ever be able to finish school and work.  I can barely manage to physically get out of bed.  I drain my mother's resources unable to contribute.  I don't have a way to get to appointments or run errands to move forward. I feel nothing but physical and emotional pain at all times.  I'm resented for my dependence.  Misunderstood.  Judged.  Rejected for who I am.  My presence in this world causes only problems, sacrifices and pain to others.  I cannot even love right.  I really wish I had never been born.