So after weeks of intense resume revamping, pavement pounding, online scouring, stressing and crying, I'm sitting here today in a coffee house, with a peace about me and nothing to do. NOTHING in particular is screaming at me saying you need to be here doing this at the moment. My apartment is clean. My bills are paid. Laundry is caught up. With the wisps of new and better job options starting to materialize in the air before my eyes, I can walk out the remaining days of my unemployed status with an entirely different state of mind. I get to sit here, fully taking in this moment. The sights and smells. Coffee and vegan coffee cake before me on the table. The sounds of various conversations and laughter mixed in with the sounds of several people's fingers clickity- clacking away on their lap tops and fancy coffee drinks being concocted all with the background of some relaxing-put-you-in-your-happy-place CD they have playing.

I can admire their combination of colors of paint on the walls, the soft low lighting, the art work displayed. I'm fully here, all senses focused and connected with the world around me. I can sit here and just be, and just look, and appreciate a moment of my life being lived without that nagging feeling of panic and loss of control over my circumstances. Its coming together, I can feel it. Now I feel I can say, I GET another day off! It feels almost like a vacation now. A gift of some TIME before me with no particular schedule or demands on my time. It feels good. Time is something most Americans feel they don't ever have enough of, and here I am with generous supply for a bit longer. Not for A LOT longer though, so I'm gonna live it up. I mean, I could get in my car and randomly drive for days and see where I end up, or read a book a day for a week if I felt so inspired.

For now I'm happy to sit here. Wondering. About what is before me. About the lives of all the others sitting around me, what circumstances brought them here today with their coffees and head phones typing away. Are they working? In school? In love? In the middle of a nasty break up? About all the new people I'm about to meet in my drastically changing life. Will any of them become some of my life long favorites? What will they stir in me? What might we discuss over coffee, or dirty martinis? Wonder what I'll do tomorrow? (Other than get my haircut and then have a second interview scheduled for 7PM!) I'm guessing I'll read Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde, take a long walk if its nice out, paint my nails, maybe see a movie at the cheap seats, or snuggle up on my couch for a Marathon of Vicar of Dibley, or Pirates of the Caribbean with some kettle corn or Rocky Road! Not sure. =D But whatever I do, will be exactly what I'm wanting to.